Today was hard. As it turned out that the maybe baby is a no baby. I am worried that its not going to happen, that it’s not meant to be. Its so hard to stay positive when month after month (even after only 7months of trying) you get your hopes up and they are shattered.

People keep telling me to stop worrying and to just keep trying, but sometimes I wonder if I can. I know there are women out there who try for yrs with no luck. But i don’t think I could handle it. I’m not coping with the emotions of it all now so I feel that I would drive myself to insanity.

I don’t want to fail my partner, don’t get me wrong we both want this every much so but I feel that because I’m the one who conceives that I’m the one who is failing because I haven’t conceived yet.

I suppose that’s enough rambling from me for now. I need to stop or ill make myself sad again.

So for now I will sign off.

Hugs and love to all

Tash Rose.